I can't sleep. It's been ages since I've experienced Insomnia on this level. I fell asleep for about an hour, during which time my dreams ran rampant and wierd to the power WIERD, as usual (over-active imaginations are sometimes annoying). I woke up craving chocolate and so thirsty that my throat felt like sand paper. I'm not sure if this is one of those times to be awesome, or simply one of those times to be annoyed - I'm still in my post sleep haze, stuck between burning eyes and a wide-a-freaking-wake mind.
I've been re-reading my post on Burma, wondering whether I've information overloaded you lovely people of Planet Pinus...and then I decided that considering how many people have already read it in the short space of time since it's been posted, and how few people really know what's going on, it's a fine proportion of fact versus reflection.
Ordinary Guy isn't well tonight World. I think I'm a pretty bad influence on him - and for that I feel quite guilty (Though he would probably tell me to get off my high horse and stop thinking myself so special - how do I know? Why, it's because I'd tell him the exact same thing if our roles were reversed). But, honest, I think the late nights, early mornings and long days are catching up with his immune system and I can't help but feel partly responsible. In as good as he's been for combating my insomnia, I think I've had the directly proportionate opposite effect on him. You know what though? I think it's a good thing that I didn't get to talk to him tonight - I've been growing too comfortable with our nightly conversations, actually clock watching when the time draws near. Not good. I'm beginning to feel too dependent on these random conversations of ours. So, while I really feel bad about it, considering he didn't look at all well earlier on and he must really be feeling pretty freaking sick to skip a call, his falling sick seems to be a blessing in disguise.
Well, anyway, I shall be out - to go and drink some water, because I'm lucky enough to actually be able to, when I want to. And then, I think I'm going to try and draw a little bit, or write a poem, or read a book - or maybe all three, depending on how far away sleep insists on straying from me tonight. Sleep well you wonderful people - because you can. I am totally envious right now.
I've been re-reading my post on Burma, wondering whether I've information overloaded you lovely people of Planet Pinus...and then I decided that considering how many people have already read it in the short space of time since it's been posted, and how few people really know what's going on, it's a fine proportion of fact versus reflection.
Ordinary Guy isn't well tonight World. I think I'm a pretty bad influence on him - and for that I feel quite guilty (Though he would probably tell me to get off my high horse and stop thinking myself so special - how do I know? Why, it's because I'd tell him the exact same thing if our roles were reversed). But, honest, I think the late nights, early mornings and long days are catching up with his immune system and I can't help but feel partly responsible. In as good as he's been for combating my insomnia, I think I've had the directly proportionate opposite effect on him. You know what though? I think it's a good thing that I didn't get to talk to him tonight - I've been growing too comfortable with our nightly conversations, actually clock watching when the time draws near. Not good. I'm beginning to feel too dependent on these random conversations of ours. So, while I really feel bad about it, considering he didn't look at all well earlier on and he must really be feeling pretty freaking sick to skip a call, his falling sick seems to be a blessing in disguise.
Well, anyway, I shall be out - to go and drink some water, because I'm lucky enough to actually be able to, when I want to. And then, I think I'm going to try and draw a little bit, or write a poem, or read a book - or maybe all three, depending on how far away sleep insists on straying from me tonight. Sleep well you wonderful people - because you can. I am totally envious right now.
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