23:30 - 00:10 - 01:15 - 02:25 - 03:34 - 04:30 - 04:59 - 05:10
Those are the times at which my sleep broke last night - and I have nobody to blame but myself. I was growing too complacent you see; too content in the feeling of safe. My past crept up to remind me that it was still there, and that I couldn't erase it...I could forget for a while, but I couldn't make it disappear, no matter how much I wanted it to. And it's always the same memories - my personal film strip of revulsion. It's one of the worst feelings ever you know, to wake up in the darkness, with your panic wrapped around you and have nobody around to reassure you that it was just a dream - because wake up enough times like that, and you begin to almost believe that it's real.
I suppose we all have our demons huh. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and all that. Just don't be offended World, if I choose not to take your calls or reply to your texts today - it's nothing personal.
I sort of feel sick coming on as well, which means damage control is in order...I honestly hope that I didn't pass it on to Ordinary Guy, I scheme that's the last thing he needs right now.
Happy Thursday! (Just smile and wave guys, smile and wave) - it's a brand new day!
Those are the times at which my sleep broke last night - and I have nobody to blame but myself. I was growing too complacent you see; too content in the feeling of safe. My past crept up to remind me that it was still there, and that I couldn't erase it...I could forget for a while, but I couldn't make it disappear, no matter how much I wanted it to. And it's always the same memories - my personal film strip of revulsion. It's one of the worst feelings ever you know, to wake up in the darkness, with your panic wrapped around you and have nobody around to reassure you that it was just a dream - because wake up enough times like that, and you begin to almost believe that it's real.
I suppose we all have our demons huh. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and all that. Just don't be offended World, if I choose not to take your calls or reply to your texts today - it's nothing personal.
Happy Thursday! (Just smile and wave guys, smile and wave) - it's a brand new day!
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