a) Do you remember on Friday I was waiting to be struck by lightning for crossing lines I wasn't yet sure I had any business crossing? Well, last night, we had the mother of all storms. I lay huddled in the dark in bed, watching the lightning flicker through my bedroom curtains to the cacophony of thunder. And I couldn't help but wonder whether it was God showing me just how pissed off He was at me, or mere coincidence. I'm going to go with the latter, I'm pretty sure God has bigger fish to fry.
b) I was driving in town early this morning and I saw a street carpeted with purple flowers. It reminded me of Grahamstown...and everything I hadn't been. It was a rather pretty picture, though nowhere near as picturesque as I remember the Rhodes University Campus street to be. I took this picture, by the way, when I visited the campus in 2011 - I was scouting, because that's where my dreams had always been stored. It was my foot in the door to a career in Journalism. It never happened though, despite the fact that they held my place for a year - it was back during the time when the parents and I not only didn't see eye-to-eye, we weren't even sure if we were both part of the same species. This picture was taken, in a stroke of wierd coincidence, right outside Ordinary Guy's dorm. I didn't even know him back when I snapped it.
Most people my age wonder how I can stomach all the serious series like Newsroom, The West Wing and the like; how I can follow news to intensely and get so worked up over issues that have no direct impact on my life whatsoever...quite simply, it's because that's what I wanted to do with my life. Watching the Newsroom's season finale, I couldn't help but think, "that's what I'm supposed to be doing." Sometimes (like this morning), I can't help but think of the things I wanted to do with my life, the person I wanted to be...and all the opportunities that came my way, and just kept on moving past. It makes me sad - like I have unfinished business with myself - at the same time though, if I'd done all the things I'd dreamt of doing and been all the things I thought I would be, I wouldn't be the person who I am now. And quite frankly, that person, is pretty darn awesome.
Still though, I don't think I'm done with my dreams yet. They haven't spun out the way I always imagined they would, despite my sticking to my end of my bargain with karma, but then again, I suppose that's just the way life is.
b) I was driving in town early this morning and I saw a street carpeted with purple flowers. It reminded me of Grahamstown...and everything I hadn't been. It was a rather pretty picture, though nowhere near as picturesque as I remember the Rhodes University Campus street to be. I took this picture, by the way, when I visited the campus in 2011 - I was scouting, because that's where my dreams had always been stored. It was my foot in the door to a career in Journalism. It never happened though, despite the fact that they held my place for a year - it was back during the time when the parents and I not only didn't see eye-to-eye, we weren't even sure if we were both part of the same species. This picture was taken, in a stroke of wierd coincidence, right outside Ordinary Guy's dorm. I didn't even know him back when I snapped it.
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| Grahamstown, Rhodes University Campus, Jan 2011 |
Still though, I don't think I'm done with my dreams yet. They haven't spun out the way I always imagined they would, despite my sticking to my end of my bargain with karma, but then again, I suppose that's just the way life is.
People who consider themselves victims of their circumstances will always remain victims unless they develop a greater vision for their lives ~ Stedman Graham
Fortune Cookie says: every time you get thrown off the horse, you've got to get up, dust yourself down and get back on (and when it comes to me, we know that's not just a metaphor).
c) Do you know who the greater fool is? "The greater fool, is someone with the perfect blend of self-delusion and ego to think that he can succeed where others have failed." (Newsroom, Episode 10, Season 1 Finale).
History was lived and made and written by greater fools. There is no shame in being the greater fool. In fact, everyone should aspire towards it.
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